Thursday, July 21, 2011

Affirmation: Changing My Dreams

Something I have struggled with in the past few months is nightmares. The only times I ever dreamed were filled with horror, death, struggle and hatred. I witnessed murders, wrecks, kidnappings, torture...and I woke up in a trembling sweat, unable to go back to sleep. This was a typical night for me.

Lately I've been reading a lot about the power of daily affirmations. Last night, while lying in bed, I took out my journal and wrote down all of my favorites so far. Here are a few:


  • I flow freely and lovingly with life.
  • I experience love wherever I go.
  • Life supports me.
  • I release any negative or fearful thoughts. I am safe. 
  • I choose to treasure my soul.
After making the list, I read them over a few times before going to bed. 

I woke up this morning feeling brighter and more happy than usual. Then I remembered the dream I had. I was in a cave, but I wasn't scared. The walls shone like diamonds, almost like tiny stars, and I was lying in a small boat on still waters. Slowly, boats floated over next to me that were filled with some of my closest friends, but also with smiling strangers. Everyone was at peace and happiness filled the cave. The next part may seem a little "Glee", but all of the sudden everyone broke out into song. It was a slow song, and I didn't know the words, but it was beautiful and harmonious. All of the voices bounced off the walls of the cave and echoed around me. It was joyous.



I truly believe this dream came to me because of the affirmations I read before going to sleep. I put my mind and soul in a confident and safe place that nightmares and negative thoughts could not touch. This was my first experience with the power affirmations can put over your well-being. Trust that this will now become a nightly ritual for me.  

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Mark Twain's Sleepless Night

As I lie awake with no sleep in sight yet again, I thought about a story my roommate's dad told me a few days ago.

I was explaining to both he and my roommate that I was really hoping to get rid of my caffeine addiction. "I can't go a day without drinking something with caffeine," I said. "Last night I had to drive across the street to buy a Sprite because my headache from not having any all day was horrible."

They both stared at me with blank expressions before my roommate started laughing hysterically. "Jenna, you do realize that Sprite doesn't have caffeine, right?"

I had completely forgotten. But what was funny was that as soon as I drank it, my headache went away and I drifted right off to sleep.

My roommate's dad then told me a story he once read about Mark Twain.


"One hot summer night Mark was lying in bed and couldn't sleep because of the heat. He was tossing and turning in his sweat. He went to the window to open it but found that it was sealed tight. He went back to bed, but continued to toss and turn. He approached the window again but no matter how hard he tried he couldn't get the window to budge. Laying there, frustrated in the heat, he threw his shoe towards the window and heard glass shatter. Knowing he had finally opened the window, he immediately dozed off. When he woke that morning, he saw that his shoe had actually struck a glass cabinet in the room, but his mind let him to believe that it was the window. Because of mind over matter, he was able to sleep regardless of the heat that still surrounded him."

It's a strange and powerful thing, the mind. Our minds control how we feel, act, live...and sleep. That's why I truly believe that a positive mind leads to a happy soul. Seeing the beauty in everyone you meet and every place you go can help you completely experience the world around you in a new and divine way. When I'm down about something, or having to do things I could care less about doing, I try to find the positive in each experience. I started journaling this past January to do just that. The way it altered my perception was staggering. The constant "I really don't want to do this" turned into "I'm so glad I was able to have this experience". My days felt better and I felt happier.

Yep, the mind is a powerful thing.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

The Grateful

Gratitude is a wonderful, beautiful feeling. It is an emotion that we need to strive for every day. The special quality of gratitude is that it centers our focus around the things we already have in our lives, not the things we want.



Lately I've been trying to find little things throughout my day that I am grateful for. Of course I am always grateful for my family, friends, health and education, but I have also been striving to find simple things throughout the day to appreciate as well. Today I was appreciative of the kindness of others. My simple morning trip to the grocery store was met with incredible kindness by every employee. They each seemed genuine and happy, which in turn made me happy. I am very grateful to have experienced such kindness today from strangers.

My plan is to blog continuously about the things in life I am grateful for. I find it to be a humbling experience to reflect on your day at night and focus on the positives this day in your life has brought to you.

Here are also a few daily affirmations concerning gratitude:

I am grateful for all that I have in life.

I am gratefulness, abundance, and love. I cherish my life and I am truly blessed. All that I have and all that I am comes from the power of being grateful.

I am grateful for each day. 

I am grateful for who I am and who I am not. I am grateful for the life I have been given and for all that I have and all that I don't. Every breath I take is a blessing and an opportunity to fully experience the sheer joy of being alive.

The universe provides me with incredible opportunities for which I am grateful. I appreciate everything in my life.

Show Me Your Brain

I read that your computer desktop is a glimpse into your brain. I'm not sure what to make of mine...

You Are What You Eat

I've had some experiences lately that have greatly altered the way in which I view health and wellness; how the things you nourish your body with can completely alter your life.



I've never been a health fanatic. Luckily, I was born with a speedy metabolism and taller figure. I can eat junk food and drink sugary drinks all day and not see many repercussions on my body. The other day I dropped by a friend's house while he was cooking lunch: quinoa, olive oil, cumin, salt and pepper. He offered me some and I said I would rather just wait and go to Chick-Fil-A.

"But that's not very good for you..." he said.
"But I like it." I replied.
"Your body doesn't."

Earlier this Summer I also had the pleasure of meeting a very handsome boy who shared with me his struggles with Chron's Disease. He had to give himself shots and was on daily medication. Eventually he decided to change his diet: all gluten free, nothing processed, lots of organic and raw food choices. Since altering his relationship with food, he hasn't needed his medicine in months. That night he even made me some of his delicious organic spinach wraps. They were fantastic! I was truly inspired by his story and amazed at how simply changing your diet could have such a strong and positive impact on your life.

My cousin is another success story that I have had the privilege to personally witness. Her health struggles began years ago, but no doctor was able to diagnose her symptoms properly. Just standing up could send her heart rate out of control. Fatigue and headaches were a part of everyday life. After countless visits to "specialists", she and my aunt decided to see a wellness professional. He started her up on a gluten free diet, which has since changed her life. (Her gluten free cookies and truffles are to die for.) It's amazing to see the transformation she has undergone. Another inspiration to me to say the least.

Seeing these things first hand has really made me evaluate my relationship with food. It has the power to work miracles if you let it.



Today I went EarthFare and completely restocked my fridge for an ultimate cleanse mode. For the next 7 days I am only eating fruits, veggies, and whole grains. Almond milk and water to drink. After the week is over I will incorporate meats back into the mix. I'm encouraging my friend Brooke to do it with me for support. (She's already a little bummed about missing happy hour tomorrow night).  Cross your fingers that I can keep this up!

The Egg

This is a short story written by Andy Weir that a friend of mine shared with me. I truly enjoyed reading it and hope you will too.



You were on your way home when you died.
It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.
And that’s when you met me.
“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”
“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.
“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”
“Yup,” I said.
“I… I died?”
“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.
You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”
“More or less,” I said.
“Are you god?” You asked.
“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”
“My kids… my wife,” you said.
“What about them?”
“Will they be all right?”
“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”
You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.
“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”
“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”
“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”
“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”
“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”
You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”
“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”
“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”
“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”
I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.
“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”
“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”
“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”
“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”
“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”
“Where you come from?” You said.
“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”
“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”
“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”
“So what’s the point of it all?”
“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”
“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.
I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”
“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”
“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”
“Just me? What about everyone else?”
“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”
You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”
“All you. Different incarnations of you.”
“Wait. I’m everyone!?”
“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.
“I’m every human being who ever lived?”
“Or who will ever live, yes.”
“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”
“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.
“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.
“And you’re the millions he killed.”
“I’m Jesus?”
“And you’re everyone who followed him.”
You fell silent.
“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”
You thought for a long time.
“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”
“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”
“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”
“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”
“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”
“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”
And I sent you on your way.

A Psychic Analysis

This blog is beginning promptly at 2:02 am on a random Tuesday morning.


Here is the story. A few months ago I went to see a psychic, who just so happened to me one of my  communication professors. The experience was fascinating. Not only did he read my palm, explain to me my past lives, and examine my aura...but we also meditated to take back the qualities of life that were divinely mine. If you have not seen a psychic before I strongly suggest you find one in your area. I spent the rest of the day in a state of mind that was pretty indescribable. Whether you believe in the art or not is up to you; but I truly believe there are humans in this world who were born more in tune with the people and things around them than others.

During my session, he asked if I considered myself an artistic person. I told him that while I love and have a passion for the arts, I haven't found my niche yet. I've tried to play instruments, paint, draw... but nothing comes as naturally to me as I expect it should. He then explained to me that my palm was bursting with creative energy struggling to escape. He said I need to find a way to release this energy in some sort of art form, which he later decided would be in writing. "Write everything you can - poems, letters, scripts, song lyrics, papers... and do it every day. You're creative energy is dying to be released and this is going to be your successful way to release it." he said.

Most of the people who I tell this story to have immediately asked, "So, what all have you started writing?" To which I respond..."Well, nothing." And it always sounds so silly that "nada" is my answer.

I promised myself I would write more, so here I am.